“You can.”
“How?”
“Stop punishing the son she loved.”
My eyes filled again.
But this time, I let the tears come.
For years, I had convinced myself that my mother died waiting for me.
I imagined her lying alone and wondering why her son hadn’t come home.
I imagined that my absence had been the final message I gave her.
Now I finally understood the truth.
She had died knowing I loved her.
And somehow, all these years later, she had still found a way to tell me.
Through Susan.
Through those letters.
Through the woman who had quietly lived across the street from me for years without ever demanding anything in return.
I couldn’t travel backward through time.
I couldn’t return home sooner.
I couldn’t sit beside my mother’s bed or answer the phone calls I had postponed.
But I could sit beside Susan.