“Like she was trying not to.”
I had almost walked away.
Thomas smiled then.
“Those are the best ones.”
I was 29 when I met him, though I had felt much older for months.
After my mother died, my life did not collapse dramatically. It simply stopped moving.
I went to work.
I paid bills.
I answered messages with little smiling faces.
It simply stopped moving.
Then I started volunteering at the hospital because the first time I saw someone die alone, something in me refused to leave.
I sat with patients whose families lived too far away, or no longer called, or could not bear to come.
I held cups of water.
Read magazines aloud.
Learned which rooms were always cold and which nurses hummed under pressure.
I started volunteering at the hospital.
People called me generous.
They were wrong.
I was hiding in the only place where grief made sense.
