I laughed in the car, then covered my mouth when the laugh turned into something else.
Claire had been gone for three weeks. I still caught myself turning to tell her things.
People kept saying I was brave for doing all of it alone.
I was not. I was exhausted, frightened, and figuring everything out as I went.
But Claire had asked for yellow sleepers, so I got out of the car.
“Okay, girls,” I whispered, lifting the stroller handle. “We’re doing this for Mom.”
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The mall felt too bright and too crowded with families who looked complete. I kept my eyes lowered until I reached the baby store.
The yellow sleepers were easy to find.
“Your mom was right,” I told Lily. “Buttons are a trap.”
I placed two sets in the basket.
Then Ivy began screaming.
Lily followed half a second later.
“I hear you,” I said, already moving. “Daddy’s got you.”