I was furious.
Grateful.
Heartbroken.
I hated him for that night.
I loved him for every night afterward.
And I had no idea how both things could be true at once.
The next morning, Mrs. Sharma brought coffee.
“I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel,” I told her.
“You don’t have to decide today,” she said. “He couldn’t undo that night. So he spent the rest of his life doing what he could do. He stayed.”
A month later, I entered a rehabilitation center an hour outside town.
It was the first serious rehabilitation program I had attempted in years.
The physical therapist looked through my records and warned me, “This is going to be rough.”
“I know.”
They strapped me into a support harness above a treadmill. My legs hung beneath me, weak after more than two decades.
The machine started.
My knees collapsed almost immediately.